JOURNEY OF LOVE AND DREAMS

Life is just spinning around its angles with full of happiness, failures, sacrifices pain and success. It is also fascinating to live life to the fullest with an inspiration to do completely things that you want to achieve, even if there’s still barricades to move further. But when there’s really willingness to grab what you wished, definitely you could get it as simple as you expect. Simple things might be useful to help you up and stand out without frighten. Facing all the trials without saying any thing for renunciation, being a great survivor for everything you had from those trials. Trails are just so easy when you have creed believing yourself inclining you could face it all not only as a challenge but also as a collection of significance in your life and would be going to evaluate those after what you had been done. It’s a flashback how you drove things out.
I still am walking along the road of dreams consistently now a days, because I’m still looking forward to my dreams on what should really I become. The answers might be worth awaiting for, simply because I am currently playing the challenge of dream. Ever since, when I was on my childhood stage, I was always thinking about the fulfillments of my dream. Because I can’t define yet niether I am weak or vigorous to encounter the struggle of life. Life is temporary in the earth for us; there are many burdens that barricade on the roads you are currently walking. Sometimes, we are clumsy walking out without looking at the steps where, and used to be stupid. Actually, I sometimes admit that I am a cute but simple stupid person who has belief to shout out even if there is still anyone would humiliate your position and condition in life.

I am a simple and quiet person with profound mentality and very much willing to undergo any kind of variations to everything. My principle in life is to fully perform my responsibilities, as a good son of my beloved parents and to do my duty to help my family ascent. I am the third in the family with my very supportive and great adviser older brother and two lovely sisters.
My father and mother had nurtured us very well from the time we awakened in this world until we had reached maturity for all good. They taught us how to value everything even simple entity that we could have been seen around. They are the best of all the bests when it talks about responsibilities for the family. I grew up with a huge respect for them and siblings. We really loved each other. We were always open to share whatever we want to share. I can’t pretty express how to convey my full happiness and gratitude of my family. For us, everyday, every hour, and every minute are the most important phenomenon of our life together.
But if there was always happiness, there was also a durable wind with us, impaired the moment of bonding and recreation. Enjoyments were over when we were being faced the trials to submerge the nature of living. We had been slowly gone down innocent and suffering financial problem due to the situation of consistent crises in the country, especially in Mindanao. My father was used to be reckless through lack of hope how to look and move forward seeking for help to anyone in order to keep safe the family. Everyone was also in despaired during those circumstances to fight, so caring to help to other was unknown because you must have to settle your family in priority. We can’t even ask people to beg or barrow at least little amount of money just to feed. Our farm land was also disgustedly empty at that time and remains just a hollow space in the vicinity. My father was almost sold that farm lot, but I was violently reacted to dissent his decision to sell the land, because that is only simple thing we could have and absolutely can help us in the near future and source of living. So my father nothing to do was just to assent my insinuation by not doing it ahead without exact pronouncement that might regret him. Until we found one person, someone that we can loan for our needs, my father lends money to afford on settling back our convenience to live. Because of that, we initially solved the problem. We sat back to our chairs again and we had revitalized happiness.
But it was not yet over; life is unexpected and still unpredictable. We were surprised with debts; we seemed to be submerging by debts. My Mom was hopeless how to pay the influential debts to some particular person, that person was insisted us to pay with condition as possible into exact day he wanted. My lovely parents seemed to be insane about what that person mentioned, and he would sue my parent if we could not abruptly able to settle our liabilities in few days before the payment proposal or period. I was a juvenile at that time, so I was just only observing what is happening, speechless without any cue to my parents. They would rather not talk my immaturity as a young boy. I forced my self to be perfect as I could just to get them listened my sides though it was not appropriate for me to be with that kind of crucial discussion or should make them calm down to provide significant resolution of the problem. While I grew older, I also became more responsible enough brought to multiple experiences. I did all the necessary actions to represent great deeds for my family. Guiding each other was the most wonderful thing to accomplish despite from any hardships you could have from somewhere else. So I also challenge my self to do much complicated or much harder thing in order to overcome the fear to become wise. I made myself started to in touch ideas alone, without getting any suggestions from others. Sometimes, I failed but I still asserted my dedication to go up. I might be thoughtless to my conservative and faint-hearted dream. I want to prove myself to do anything perfectly as hardly I could, so I continued to hug my tiresome of putting my duty at risk. I just embraced my own problem onwards. I never asked opinion or solicited advice to anyone, even with my parents because I don’t want them think stressful matters.

We almost had done all the sacrifices in life. I could say that we had all the immunity with something worrisome, something that is difficult to bear with. I’ve learned a lot from there, and I could not never ever forget those wonderful experiences.

Years after, I enrolled high school. I was really impressed the influence of the school and the feeling of being a student. I met so many friends in every section in the campus. There you are; a simple quiet guy became a loud man. A silent person turned to be intelligent at any kind of jarring on senses or feelings to explore. I did the entire years in school all excellent, as a good student, good follower and all paid attention the rules and regulations. During last year in school, it was fourth year. I was so excited that time few months before the graduation day. I became so generous and profuse most of the time. Finally, on the day of graduation the feelings of mine were countless because of the prospering happiness and the embrace of warm success completing the secondary level. It was absolutely the most unforgettable happening in my life. Friendships were started saying goodbye, but I knew it is not the end yet so I smiled. Most of us cried, others had shown silent tears. Parting each was really a breakdown for us at adolescent stage because we created good foundation of relationships that is much-admired by the next generation. Life was absolutely like that, everyone should find the goals and dreams for their lives, making thing simple and making it all possible.

The opening for college enrollment had come — June 2007, was my another worried because I might not be able to enroll university at all due to that disgusted financial issues we have. So I decided to standby for 1 year at home, and looked for hobbies that could stop the grief sometimes I felt while alone. My routine was beaten by stress every time I think about it. But I have nothing to do was just to accept the reality.